come on kiss the gun...

he was so tall
overpowering even
she couldn't help
but wonder to herself
when she hugged him
how it would feel
if he slipped his hands
into her boyshorts
would anyone notice
folk meeting and greeting
place crowded
maybe his arms would be hidden
by his dark jacket
button down shirt
as he manuevered
inside her tight jeans
down and inside her warmth
as he spread her lips apart
to the folds of her wet spot
he silently wondered
if the people playing pool
next to them would notice
her hips as they rocked
against the palm of his hand
they both secretly hoped
strangers would ignore
what seemed like a playful kiss
and hand to his cheek
and not hear her roar
"u. r. gonna make me cum"
then him whispering
"go head baby"
the encounter
this one embrace
only lasted 90 seconds
just a taste
that was all it took


"guaranteed for fun"

shoot the moon....

neva know til you try it....


posting this for TIFFY..my eyebrows...













I've neva eva eva altered them cept for a few plucks here and there

thinking bout getting them waxed this week...shape them up...
I want them bushy and full but toned down..something to add to my
beauty regime.

what have you added lately??

I'm pretty low maintenance..I like to keep it simple but
for the new year I want to try some new things

shake it up a little..maybe a new hair color??

oh and I've started a new project...day 3 ;)

its your world....

Quote of the Day

"Don't let other people tell you what you want."

– Pat Riley

TOP 5.....

are you living your life for someone else??
are you on the outside looking in??
are you trapped in a dream that is not yours??
are you a victim of your circumstances??
are you everything you aspire to be??

everything we need we already have

overachievers anonymous....

I spent the BEST WEEKEND EVER with my girls from da BURG....we've known each other half our lives and we've all experienced the same things JUST at different times of our lives....
we shopped together, went to church together, cried together, listened to go-go (Sardines HEY and pork n beans) and house music and drank so much booze together it was ridiculous...
my friend had a full blown bar IN HER HOUSE..we concocted every drink imaginable and we went thru 4 yearbooks, 6 photo albums and 2 dean and deluca bags of photos!

I'm gonna post some my college photos because truly they show the TRUE ME! WOW!
from the spandex biker shorts and reeboks, to the too big for my face eyeglasses, to the size 2 cheerleading outfit, to all the OMEGA man we chased and devoured (we had 2 albums alone of all of our que boyfriends) WOW! we wore pink timbalands, leather trenchcoats with magenta sweatsuits...we smelled like liz claiborne realities and we listened to Maureen by Sade 24/7

those were the days...but anyways..

the most important part of the weekend was just how all of our conversation centered around the men in our lives...past, present and what we want in the future...

and there was only one complaint
Why are men intimidated by women that are doing well for themselves?

wtf?? I read so many blogs daily written by men talking about how he wants his woman to be successful/have a hustle (right sbm??) , cook, have a nice body, give him head on a regular basis and let him hang with his boys from time to time

but when we make too much money they feel inadequate
when we feed them too much they get santa bellies and blame our mashed potatoes
when our bodies are all hard and we got the 6-pack they look at themselves with disgust
when we give them head...well they don't complain about that but they always want more

and when we let them hang with the boys...they do stooopid shit!

but the main theme that got me is that when a man has someone that can pay her bills on time, buy them special gifts, treat them to dinners and movies
the man feels less than a man
he then wants to feel more needed and more than likely turns to someone that is NEEDY!!!
he turns away from the I- N- D- E- P-E - N -D - E- N- T woman to someone that has nothing going on...

men say they don't want a woman without any dreams but when we have too many they say we are being extravagant or unrealistic
one BFF's boyfriend said her house was too big
one BFF's boyfriend said she should downsize from her truck to a car
shit I've had guys say they were intimidated because I worked all the time

its like men bitch and moan about wining and dining women but when they meet a women that doesn't need alladat they complain, rebel and end up finding someone that does....

*sigh*
men gotta love em...."I eat em in the morning and I eat em in the night"

heart rate increases...

*thump,thump*

this is all I got...

NGO

6'3" and full of fine-NESS

something about his nipples...

"You start to shiver.. but then you scream, my friend"

Have a great weekend ladies! *wink*

"This is the rap season.. where the gee starts pleasin"

my valentine....

he's black and hot....my MR. COFFEE....LOVE HIM!!!



...my vday gift from DAD...not that *daddy* (protector)

but my biological DAD (you remember the crazy one)



I've been on the horn with TIFFY all week about how I wanted a coffee maker...and this is what I got...called DAD and told him my bank account needed a refresher and he hooked me up.



So I bought this and this...i love coffee mugs








I rented Why Did I Get Married and bought The Best Man





The Protector and I didn't make plans and had no expectations....we are broken up anyways..right

*sigh*

so I have plans with myself, my coffee and my movies.



Got a job interview tomorrow early (so i'm posting this now) then I have the rest of the day off to pamper myself and rest up for my girls weekend!

go gee - dub!!!

good to me....

two things:

i'm reading the 4 agreements thanks to my hairdresser:

1) Say only what you mean
2) Nothing others do is because of you
3)Ask questions..express what you really want
4)Do your best

..in a nutshell everyone should read this book!


and i'm headed to Charlotte to visit my bestest girlfriend from college..
met her on the first day of school...she was also my maid of honor
we are still very close and her dad and my dad are still friends 20 {ahem} years later....
haven't seen her since we took a girls getaway to disney about 4 years ago
she called to tell me she's going on a cruise for her birthday this month
and I want to see her before she goes

I'm also doing a cruise in JUNE...............GEMINI BABY!
..wish we were doing it together - we've always been with each other in spirit even when we don't see each other for years! we've gotten into so much trouble over the years it AIN'T even funny!!

I need to see her...she feeds my spirit...she quenches my soul...gives me a feeling of comfort, she's my warm blanket...she restores my faith and gets me to see the important things in life and I never sweat the small stuff when i'm around her

one time we were driving and ran out of gas...I almost peed in my pants cuz she said
"thats it..we're out of gas"
me: "what????"
her: "we're out of gas"
me: "what do you mean?"
her: "what I said..we are OUT OF GAS!!"
the way she said it just made me die laughing ...
me: "isn't this a hybrid"
her: "what does that have to do with anything"
me: "we shouldn't ever run out of gas"
her: "well we are now"
we sat and cried and laughed so hard for 30mins..we couldn't stop laughing
we couldn't even call for help we just laughed and cried

I know you had to be there but it was the funniest thing ever I swear..I'm crying from laughing so hard right now as I type this!

so anyways..that's my share of the week..aren't you glad you stopped by ;)

:I feel like I’m seeing the world
inside of me
I can tell you that I know,
it's getting easier to breathe:

freestyle gee-day

They say the gee is complicated
more like disrespected and hated
like when you gave your love and time
and they just skated
into the life of another one
you sit and cry to mama’s gun
but the tears won’t erase
the baggage that is sure to come
out from nowhere with the next one
he won’t understand the rage,mistrust,
and accusations
its all his fault for nothing
still he risked it all for the sensation
burning deepshe felt a false something
blamed it on jealousy
look inside the inner me is the enemy
no matter how fast I run
I still come undone
as my clothes fall at my feet
giving it up for free
to the next one


"i wish i could lose
all of my blues
i wish i could stop
puttin my blues on u"

you durty rat.....

The Chinese year 4706 begins on today. Goodbye Pig...hello The Year of the Rat

Legend has it that in ancient times, Buddha asked all the animals to meet him on Chinese New Year. Twelve came, and Buddha named a year after each one. He announced that the people born in each animal's year would have some of that animal's personality. Those born in rat years tend to be leaders, pioneers, and conquerors. They are charming, passionate, charismatic, practical and hardworking.

My Chinese Zodiac is the Monkey (like my slippers?? MONKEYPAWZZ-thanks Crissy)

Here are some highlights:

No task is too great for the clever Monkeys.

They master most anything.

They have extremely charming manners that draw others.

Monkeys solve difficult problems with ease.

They are quick-witted,innovative, and they have total and intense belief in themselves.

No one delights in their own accomplishments like the Monkeys. Enjoying themselves immensely, they try anything at least once!

They don't care what opinions others have of them. They know they are lucky, and they also know they have the ability to change things when convenience calls. Monkeys are virtually unsinkable! When the odds are stacked against them, Monkeys know when to quit.

Their timing is superb, and they will wait to try another time.

Monkeys like to travel, and they want to do it first class.They need a certain amount of excitement in their lives.

Since Monkeys get what they want without too much trouble, they may not care about all their conquests. They lose interest quickly and must learn to finish what they start and take care of what they have.

People always flock around Monkeys,but Monkeys don't trust very much. They know a select group of friends that they choose carefully. Money is a must for Monkeys, and they usually have it, or will be in the process of getting it.They know nothing is permanent. They improve and try to do better, and often amaze even themselves. Monkeys like facts and they hate to waste time.

Monkeys must be careful in romance, although clear-sighted, they are very critical and lose interest in anyone they can't consider their peer.They are vain and egotistical,but even that is to their advantage.

Monkeys are always out in front!

Sounds like a Gemini to me, conceited as hell!!!!

this body of mine...

I've been taking tons of photos of various parts of my body lately..Exploring how other people see me. Asking myself how do I look nekkid? Do I really look good in tight jeans. Should I go up in a bra size? Does anyone else notice how dry my feet are??
Pictures help...cuz its hard to just look in a mirror and step back and really see yourself...

First off I have a lot of freckles and moles..wow!! what's the difference??? i dunno
and I have a lot of HAIR wow!!! I need to wax erry dayum day and don't miss a day!!

do men really like women bald down there or with just a hint of hair?? anyways off topic

I think I look better straight on in photos..my profile view shows my double chin..I love my breasts, my hands and my lips. My hair has always been a pain cept in highschool I had the fly azz symetrical hair cut now I just keep it natural, no perms.

and wow do I need a haircut, i loook straight like don king when I wake up in the morning

..I cut my hair very short last august..and since then it grows faster and you can see my gray BIGTIME!!!! when it was long I never knew I had gray hair!!! and it seemed to never grow..go figure...

My butt is a size 8 but my belly is a size 14....naw lemme stop ... but really
I need a gut buster!!!!

I wish I had that runners attitude..ya know those people that can just get up every morning and walk or run . read: tiffy...I don't have it and never had it.

I looked my best and was most in shape 2 times in my life...The first time was in College I was a NCAA cheerleader so my body was TIGHT! I recorded every thing I ate and I was fit...I stayed a size 4 (not saying that is fit but it was fit for me) til I got married in 1997.

Then I got all comfy in my marriage started cooking and buying groceries like the stores were going out of business..I mean all the we did was EAT...next thing I know I'm a size 12...

so in

2004 I started going to a gym cuz I was just too lazy otherwise....I mostly did step aerobics, treadmill and light weights

I dropped down to a healty size 8..and I really loved how I looked but now I feel I'm sinking into that "lets eat everything in fridge in one day" mode....

I think once I settle into one job...I'm doing too many right now
and once I settle into a man...mind on the wrong one right now
then maybe I can settle into healthy eating habits and a workout that makes me happy!

or maybe I should flip it and reverse it??