Sum of a Man...

Naturally when I'm single I daydream of lovers past and MAN! I've loved some beautiful men in my life, and I miss a little part of each of them.
I'm thinking right now...wouldn't it be nice to have them all in one man RIGHT NOW!!
Let's seee...
there was my protector, the writer..man his words would flow like liquid. Instant panty dropper! Not only that he was such a great spiritural advisor and counselor to me, I would cry on his shoulders for hours and he'd always have a solution. and when our time was up he fought for me over and over again. Sweet Temptation should be his nickname because our lovemaking was the best ever..so magnetic and everytime was a good time..orgasms after orgasms for days and nights at a time over and over again. we didn't have any reservations at all and we tried everything. (almost)
I don't think any other man would say I was as a great a lover as I was with him. He was a Sag..he was great with money and I was his student!

then there was the sweet as honey one. He was also my twin, my mirror..i saw the good and bad in me, in him. We had a lot of fun together. Damn he smelled good!
he was always with the "hey sweetie, hey baby" which I loved because I never had that before...The thing I love about him was that he was just so NICE..too nice almost. But at the time I need that we had similar personalities so we GOT each other. I needed affection and love and he gave me that.
he was so even keel and hardly even raised his voice. We didn't argue much and he didnt' start fights.. He didn't show his emotions at all really. But I miss that I could snuggle against him and feel so relaxed and warm in my heart..a truly great love.

oh there was the young clever one, from my home town, my crush, that showed me how great it feels to please someone...our fling didn't last long and we didn't see each other often but when we did I felt like I pleased him and left him satisfied. It pleased me to be around him and show him just how much I wanted him. He was the biggest flirt and I always felt wanted. I wasn't unselfish with him at all. Always the giver. He was a great writer also and I loved reading his words. He was also a music lover like me. Now that I think about it we did have a lot in common. It didn't go beyond a friends/fling/crush tho ..wasn't meant to be anything more than that. *sigh*

Then there was the virgo, my husband and best friend, a great father but ended up as a horrible husband in the end. However, we were great business partners and he had great ambition and drive. We started so many businesses and wrote so many plans for the future. We could dream up anything and make it happen. He is always hustling in his career and I still admire him that about him. I can never call him lazy thats for sure.

I often think of the guy that was such a great dancer that I would walk away from him trembling. I often think of the guy that was so spontaneous we'd just jump up and go. I didn't have to worry about anything he'd take care of all the details. I think of the guy that loved to travel and we had many adventures together. I sometimes think of the body builder that had the best body was the most healthiest of them all. We had great workouts together.
All come and gone...but they've all made me realize sometimes I truly want and never knew I wanted them.

I want a great lover, full of wisdom, thats healthy, that has a way with words, is ambitious, smart, loving, kind, tall, dark and handsome, is a go getter, a great lover ( did I say that), creative, loves music, is patient with us, has faith in us, protects me at all times and loves me for me..quirks and all...I am a gemini so there are many quirks! and I want all of this to come naturally!

I want the sum of all the men that have touched a little part of my life and captured a space in my heart.

Is that too much to ask??

Lady Tee

aka Teena Maria released a new album yesterday.

Congo Square

love for sale...

why wasn't this sold in stores??

I need this album!!! PRONTO!

Bilal must be a gemini..cuz he's truly an artist..hot - cold and - inbetween
alladat
The champ and I saw him Saturday night

n'dambi opened for him HOT..her energy was SICK!!!

Bilal lingered out around 11pm..with algebra as a back up singer SHE"S HOT
he didn't have his regular band and seemed frustrated by it
had to play some of his own songs on the piano cuz homeboy wasn't getting it

he seemed irritated
and high
and algebra seemed worried or concerned about him

pure love on her face for him...
I was wondering the whole time if he felt the love coming from his fans
like a gemini I felt he was anazlying our responses
he seemed reluctant to do an encore but he did

he was BLOWING! I LOVE HIM!

When he did SOMETimes the crowd went crazy~
and Make me over is my new JAM!

and for the record he was checking me out of course!! behind his shades

"make me over, make me over..."

doobie ashtray....

man..where have I been??

I had this great post about sacrifices and how we sacrifice our time to give to others and how we sacrifice sleep for concerts and our sanity for work but I fell asleep never typed it in my phone and now its all lost!
so all I have is my "happy to date"

this live performance from Solange...the champ and I saw her Thursday night and WOW she's amazing in her own lane and FIYAH!!!



this theme for my bb *heart*









new red frames










this diva

new boots









"That's just so, That's just so, That's just sooooooooooooooo..need a champagne chronic nitecap"

new new..things to do...

For my 100th post (on this blog)...I wanted to post 100 things we should do this year!



1) Write a letter to the President (congratulations, thanks, anything encouraging)



"Loving Everything You Do

Cuz You Do It Well"

2) Write your mom a letter
3) women get an annual complete with pap smear and mammogram (done 1/26/08)
4) kiss a baby
5) gentlemen have your prostate checked
6) kiss a pet
7) give lover lap dance
8) babysit (if you don't have kids it will make or break you)
9) do the robot at a house party
10) really leave toxic friends behind
11) sing out loud to your lover
12) knit something (its so relaxing)
13) go to a concert
14) travel to the islands
15) make a scrapbook (DONE)
16) plant a tree
17) become an organ donor (DONE)
18) drive coast to coast
19) buy a sex toy (DONE)
20) write kids a letter tell them how proud you are of them
21) make love in the rain
22)see a foreign film (subtitles a must)
23)Visit the white house
24) shake hands with a celebrity
25) go camping
26) be an extra in a movie
27) throw a huge party (i've never had a party thrown for me...PHOOEY!)
28) go see a taping of a show , or be on a show (I was on Oprah!)
29) sit on a jury (done that..couldn't escape it living in DC)
30) fall in love and stay in love!

okay I can't think of anymore, already bored with this lil project LMAO!!!

add yours in the comments....can we make it to 100???




"Will you succeed? Yes, you will indeed (98 3/4% guaranteed)." - Dr. Seuss

Journal to shine...

So I finally bought my journal for 2009 (pages will be shared)....I start it off as always with words of how I brought the new year in (this year in tears again)...and then its normal day to day fodder of what I'm doing, what I did, what I'm grateful for and what I want.

This year I want to write about what inspires me, how can I be an inspiration, how can I become a better me for all those around me and for all those lives I touch. I want it to reach beyond my immediate friends and family and coworkers.

I want that passion and determination in my eyes that I had 10 years ago, that I had again 5 years ago. Somewhere it got lost...dreams fulfilled and dreams deferred.

I want more sources of motivation, creativity, happiness, rejuvenation, more reasons to live. For the past 2 years I've coasted...survived (sometimes just barely) I'm tired of coasting...doing enough just to get by...I want more!

I'm starting with this journal...from these pages to real life.

Journal Prompt # 1
What do you want people to say about you when you are not listening??
What are you doing to always leave positive vibes behind you??


"I'm just like you
I gotta fight to stay strong"