Friday, May 2, 2008

call it a crime...

I just realized this morning driving into work that I haven't had much to write about because I'm happy...I've been looking for my happy place..I'm in my happy place...I'm on my way to a happier place

I'm one of those people that could write and express myself better on paper when I'm sad, depressed, emotionally distraught and feeling blue.

When I'm happy I keep those feelings in, to myself, holding them close and never letting them out for fear they will get away from me..for fear they will be stolen from me never to return.

I wrote some of my best work on my old blog because I was heartbroken, soul searching and confused...the more my heart breaks the more I'm able to express myself.

When I'm happy and content I choke and keep those feelings inside, which reminds me of this by Marianne Williamson

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
It is our light not our darkness that frightens us
We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?”
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us
It is not just in some of us
It is in everyone
And as we let our own light shine
We unconsciously give permission to other people
To do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear
Our presence automatically liberates others

on another note: I'd be even happier if I had NELLY in my life!

"You can go search but you never could find,
I promise you derrty I'm one of a kind. "


1969 said...

Well I for one would rather read nothing because YOU are happy. Enjoy it, Embrace it and Be Happy!

Tha L said...

HAPPY!!! YAAAAAYYYY!!!! Girl, BE that. I'm smiling for you!

Roddykat said...

Selfish. Selfish, I say! We want the happy Gee X2, also. (*SMH*)

I do feel you though on writing better when upset or conflicted. That's how I used to write myself.

Booo, for not writing. Hurray, Happy!!

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

u know i write all the time, emotions aside, its like my heart beat or respiration

Skoolboi Krush said...

Love that you are enjoying your happiness. Own it though and then nobody can take it from you.

Gemini Girl aka GG said...

thanks 1969 and LBOOGIE..I'm not running anymore..I'm so happy and I'm enjoying it.
Mr. Rod..I write...did you get my email?? lol
I feel you Torrence!
Krush..I won't let go and he told me he wouldn't let me anyways! ;)

PRO said...

I'm your Gemini twin in this case. I seem to bottle up my feelings and they don't want to come out when I'm unhappy. I'd feel better if the writing were a therapist. Then I could talk out my unhappiness. Sigh. Maybe I should seriously consider becoming one.

Blah Blah Blah said...

...what is derrty?

Someone said that about me...that when I am hurt I write better...sucks because I wanna write better when I am happy. But then, guess i'd have to be happy to write that way too.

Mizrepresent said...

Being happy, now that's a wonderful thing you never have to apologize for...but i feel ya...i seem to write better when i'm hurting, something about pouring your heart out on a page.

Happy that you are happy!