call it a crime...

I just realized this morning driving into work that I haven't had much to write about because I'm happy...I've been looking for my happy place..I'm in my happy place...I'm on my way to a happier place

I'm one of those people that could write and express myself better on paper when I'm sad, depressed, emotionally distraught and feeling blue.

When I'm happy I keep those feelings in, to myself, holding them close and never letting them out for fear they will get away from me..for fear they will be stolen from me never to return.

I wrote some of my best work on my old blog because I was heartbroken, soul searching and confused...the more my heart breaks the more I'm able to express myself.

When I'm happy and content I choke and keep those feelings inside, which reminds me of this by Marianne Williamson


Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
It is our light not our darkness that frightens us
We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?”
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us
It is not just in some of us
It is in everyone
And as we let our own light shine
We unconsciously give permission to other people
To do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear
Our presence automatically liberates others

on another note: I'd be even happier if I had NELLY in my life!

"You can go search but you never could find,
I promise you derrty I'm one of a kind. "