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Monday, January 28, 2008

driftin....

from day to day..in limbo
trying so many different things that aren't working out
so what do i desire?? what should I be focusing on?
my life used to have so much direction..or did it?

When i was younger my dream was to get married
and have kids and work a job I loved!

so i drifted from single status to marital
i got so settled and comfortable
then my partner drifted out
emotionally
so I switched my focus to a NEW dream

to own something ... in my name only
something I could nurture and make a success
Secure my/our future
sweat equity
drifted from housewife to business owner

when I look back on these things I don't remember
the challenge and the struggle I just remember I made it
happen, somehow, someway
my mind was clear
I knew exactly what I was doing

now i'm just confused
shakenwhats my next move??
i'm hope that this will also
look like a walk in the park on a sunny day
once I get on the other side and look back at it
but for now it seems every door
i get the courage to walk thru
and turn the knob and settle in
i end up finding an empty room

want to get out of this cycle
want to open the door and get thru
come out on top
but I'm scrambling
mind all over the place
cuz I just don't know where to start

driftin...

11 comments:

Pro said...

This made me think of Al Green's, Livin for you. Just take it one day at a time, sis. If WE'on do nuffin' we gone ball... Ain't that what you keep telling me? It's coming, chica. The Sky's the Limit. *Where my baby Weezy at?*

Camille said...

Good post. I think we've all been there. Reminds me of that song "My Imagination" By Gladys and the Pips. Keep pressin on, lady!

Blah Blah Blah said...

...I put my foot on the porch, my hand on the doorknob...then I freeze up.
Even if the place waw empty...I'd be fine just being me... let me get comfortable and decorate as I please. Add or delete what is right for me...
...but I freeze up before I even open the door.
You're a lot further along than me baby.

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

u write well. chk me out one day if u can

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

thanks sista u can sample these penchant 4 commitment and this THANK WE FREE o this
chk this out the name game ust a sample

1969 said...

Gee Gee.... You are not lost, you are transitioning into the next big thing, okay?

Amadeo said...

I mostly drift between trying to be good at my job and paybills to finding some way to be free of it all. A friend of mine who's injured told his father: "I might as well move to Belize and have lots of babies with poor earthly women who adore me. Better that then to feel useless here."

Skoolboi Krush said...

I've come to your page three times this week just to listen to Badu.

Jamaal said...

hey gg, i'm back after an hiatus from blogging......btw keep pushin' sis

peace

Gemini Girl aka GG said...

PRO, reserve weezy for you blog :P
Camille, yeah I know its a phase..been there done that and the smoke will clear soon
Bloop, still freezing..nobody's melted you yet??
Torrance - been there and I'll be back
1969..yes transitioning and I think i'm headed to a good place
amadeo..belize eh?? i don't think you could every fully escape and be free of it all - completely
krush - thats all you came for??
jamall - what?? YAY! u back!!!

The Professor said...

Took a while to find you. I had no idea you moved...