honey got a problem...

didn't realize
she had a one
til she sat
the wine glass
on her nightstand
and found
2 empty glasses
already there
from the night before
and the night before

turning into her mother
hers was vodka
odorless and colorless
and men
smooth and loveless

she didn't stop til she burned
down her new kitchen
in her new custom built house
on the beach
fire dept woke her up
laying next to him
cooking for him
they didn't realize the fire
til they were saved

what will it take for *her*
doing this everynight
hers was merlot
dark, almost black
used to be pills
1 then 2 then 3 at a time
the sleeping kind
can't be normal
someone else's
reality??
shutting off the brain
acts disappearing
the words
the images
in her head
blurry for the moment

uptight
stressed
husband got fired??
kids failing school??
overwhelmed at work??

then quit
slow down
turn it off
for that night
or 2 or 3
she can't move
think
or cry
she closes her eyes
and waits for it
to come back