driftin....

from day to day..in limbo
trying so many different things that aren't working out
so what do i desire?? what should I be focusing on?
my life used to have so much direction..or did it?

When i was younger my dream was to get married
and have kids and work a job I loved!

so i drifted from single status to marital
i got so settled and comfortable
then my partner drifted out
emotionally
so I switched my focus to a NEW dream

to own something ... in my name only
something I could nurture and make a success
Secure my/our future
sweat equity
drifted from housewife to business owner

when I look back on these things I don't remember
the challenge and the struggle I just remember I made it
happen, somehow, someway
my mind was clear
I knew exactly what I was doing

now i'm just confused
shakenwhats my next move??
i'm hope that this will also
look like a walk in the park on a sunny day
once I get on the other side and look back at it
but for now it seems every door
i get the courage to walk thru
and turn the knob and settle in
i end up finding an empty room

want to get out of this cycle
want to open the door and get thru
come out on top
but I'm scrambling
mind all over the place
cuz I just don't know where to start

driftin...