as real as I can get....

so Mr. Organized has a post today about looking in the mirror...made me think of this song...

what you see is what you get....is this always true??

I'm trying to think do I always show all my cards in the beginning
of any relationship??...with an employer, employee, friends, lovers.....

I do hold back a lot but I also GIVE GIVE GIVE and tell it all just depends on who you are. I initally trust everyone and that's not good.

I need to find a balance...I have a blind date coming up
set up by a friend of a cousin of a friend..not my typical TYPE
he's tall and lighter than me..I prefer them dark chocolate
he's more of a pretty boy..I prefer them rough around the edges

We've been talking and I've basically told him all the mistakes I've made
in this past year of being single..mistake no. 1
I told him all the things I wanted out of a relationship...and he told me
a lot about him and his life...nothing has turned me off yet..nothing
has made me cautious ... its only been 2 weeks how much of the real him
could I possibly know...

I'm trying to give him a chance..going against what I'd normally do...

normally I'd stay in an unhealthy relationship
normally I'd chase someone that didn't deserve my attention
normally I'd entertain someone that was boring as hell

this time i'm trying something totally new for me....the new gee remember??

so we'll see where it goes I just have to remember to hold back a lil
and not put it all out there....
I have to remember to not try to take control of the situation
try not to paint this image of all the things I am or can be

I'd rather let him get to see the real me on his own and form his own opinion
I'll let him take the lead...that's a thought...